i cant believe....

that people are being forced to put their blogs on blogger during school.
i find that pretty hilarious.!!
:P

Oh well, i guess our blogger world can use a few extra people in the mix(:

Anyway, ive had pretty much an awesome week last week, {birthday stuff galore.!}
and i felt special if someone even remembered my birthday, let alone give me a dollar(:

Well, this week pretty much sucks:( {thats how it goes, you can never have too much of a good thing in life. HAHA.}

Lets just say on Saturday my friend invited my ex to the movies and we had an okay time with him, but then alot of drama happened but i was okay. {venting was pretty nice....... even if i had to cuss him out first} LOL.

but today at school, i just broke down crying before school.... idk why.
i just had a wave of negativity hit me and take me down in one swift motion.
i was just a horrible feeling of the past, and how im not exactly "gorgeous" or pretty enough for any guy. Its just something about me that drives them away and i just cant figure out what. But the time will come eventually.!!

I think maybe its just the time of year again, when all the romance is in the air, and if someone catches it, it's the best time to do so. But for me, i have never been lucky enough to share anyone on a holiday, and all my friends are this year. So i guess it's like they are rubbing it in my face somehow, but they don't know it. But it sure is tearing me apart at the seams.! Thank God they won't find out..


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Its been awhile....

Since i have posted anything (sorry for that.!!!)

i havent been able to get on computer much, rather than doing homework.

LoL

{DARN HOMEWORK IS GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME.!!!}

i totallyyy enjoyed those two exam days, i got to relax, listen to music, and nap in all my classes.

:D

the experience was quite refreshing.!!

The next few weeks are going to be awesometastic.! (with some cake on the side.!!)

• The relaxing exam days (done)


• JOSH IS COMING HOME.! (Today, i might add.!)


• A friend (who is quite yummy haha.!) is coming to poteet next week.


• MY BiRTHDAYY iS ON THURSDAYY.!!!!!!


• That weekend is my birthday weekend (WOO.!)

And after that.... its gonna suck. hahaha..

oh well.! :D

My life is kinda looking up, and i am progressively learning more about myself :D

its not a matter of having others accepting me for who i am, its for ME to accept me for myself (:

I dont need some major buttnugget to be telling me who i can and cant be and judging me for being myself. But i dont need to be putting myself down in the same manner.

haha...........

anyway.... there isnt much else to say, so toodles.! (JK)

♥♥